The meowing bird

We die containing a richness of lovers and tribes,
tastes we have swallowed,
bodies we have plunged into and swum up as if rivers of wisdom,
characters we have climbed into as if trees,
fears we have hidden in as if caves.
I wish for all this to be marked on my body when I am dead.
I believe in such cartography--to be marked by nature,
not just to label ourselves on a map like the
names of rich men and women on buildings.
We are communal histories, communal books.
We are not owned or monogamous in our taste or experience.
-Michael Ondaatje, The English Patient

20 07 2012 - &

she is my venus in furs. she’s tattooed an ampersand on her wrist to remind herself she is plural in her creation; she within the oversoul—-the way dark matter branches galaxies together, like trees hanging soft leaves on strings tied to their fingertips. 

she ate cereal out of polish teacups and drank honeyed green tea in our unmade bed. she was the first person to ever hear a whale sing while trapped in a zissou submarine during the cold war. 

true beauty decays the flesh—-the ballet dancer’s feet, the pianist’s hands, a poet’s mind.  she felt like the forgotten limbs who clean up murder scenes after the swarm of forensic photographs and familial tears leave the place where blood is no longer filled with memories of a human being, but stains on walls and carpets. 

others love the dance, the music, and the words. i long to love the decay. to stain my skin with “&,” and know that i am an endling. 

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